My Struggle

This morning, I struggle.
Yesterday, I struggled.
The struggle is real. It shouldn't be, but it is.
It's a struggle few would "get". It's a struggle that I recognize I shouldn't even be struggling with, but I do. I've prayed and I've cried out (the ugly cry - until no more would come) and still I struggle.

I struggle with self.
I struggle with others.
I struggle with the way we treat each other. The way we act towards one another. What we do, and don't, say to others.

I struggle to be real.
I struggle to be real with others.I see this same struggle with/in others. Why can't we just recognize that we're all flawed.
Recognize it. Accept it. Accept one another. Move on.

Sin.

It's disgusting - In me and in others.
Pride. Favortism. Back-stabbing. Lust. Greed. Lying. So many others...
Sin is not of God. Why do we do it? Why do we put up with it? Why do we tolerate it? Even within our churches.

Oh God, I do not want to point fingers unless it is towards myself. Forgive me. I know those sins describe me at different times in my life. Some of them even now. Cleanse me from my sin, take it away. I don't want to dishonor You. I want to bring You pleasure. May Your glory be my hearts first and utmost desire.